17 February 2012 @ 04:02 am
Three and a half weeks ago I took a fall and hurt my leg... again. It's an old injury, though one that hadn't flared up this bad in a long time. Three weeks ago I almost passed out crutching to the bathroom because suddenly I couldn't breath no matter how hard or fast I tried.

Three weeks ago (as of Thursday/yesterday) I found out that thanks to my leg injury I'd managed to develop Deep Vein Thrombosis otherwise known as blood clots in my bad leg. This was found out because three and a half weeks ago when I fell, it dislodged one of those blood clots. Said blood clot was very large and ended up blocking over 95% of the blood flow to my lungs (A pulmonary embolism).

Thankfully it was caught in time (obviously since I'm still alive); however, it was rather too close for comfort. I spent about a week and a half in the hospital. I've not even been home two weeks yet. I just... haven't felt like talking about this incident in detail until now.

The incident put some hefty strain on my heart and did a number to my lungs as well. Not to mention I've got this nasty cough because of it now and they say I'll probably have it for a couple months at least. And to add insult to injury? I still can't walk. It'll be a month come Monday and I still can't bear to put any weight on my bad leg. So I'm largely bed bound at the moment because crutching is hard on my good leg and not exactly wonderful for my currently fairly wimpy lungs.

Which makes me pretty grumpy, no lie. I can't get food or well... anything for myself. I have to have a family member help. Just crutching to the bathroom or the front room is seriously hard and it leaves me panting and out of breath. Which is sad since the bathroom is now directly across from my room. It had been on the far side of the house, but with what's happened my kid brother gave up his room so I could be able to have at least the dignity of getting to the bathroom unaided.

I just thought I should come clean, update about what's going on, and reassure people that I'm not dead. Even though I came way too close - which was a huge wakeup call, but I'll leave that post for another day.

So uh... hi? Did I miss much?

Edit: Oh yeah! Apparently I already owe the hospital over 39k. Isn't that swell? :D
So, are you excited for the new year?:  Yes! Yes! A thousand times yes! COME ON 2012. LET'S GO!
What was your favorite thing about this past year?:  Moving back home again. It hasn't always been good, but hey I get regular meals and have AC/Heat now so I'll take what I can get.
Who was your best friend(s)?: Bubbles and Al and Khalily and Laura and a bunch of people. I love everybody. ;A; 
Did you fall in love this year?:  Since I categorize crushes and love separately, no. Platonically? That's another matter.
Did you get your heart broken?: Nope.
Did you get a new car?: Nope. 
Go somewhere exciting?: I don't call "moving back to Louisiana" as going somewhere exciting, meme.
Did you have a resolution for 2011?: To further fall in love with myself and to learn how to fully ignore haters. Especially people who just hate me for little things like the way that I limp or how my body looks.
Did you dye your hair in 2011?: I started the year with medium dark-ish blonde hair. It's now light blonde. You do the math. :3
Lose any friends in 2011?: I don't think so? I've drifted apart from some, but I wouldn't count that as losing them.
Make any?: [personal profile] serys I guess? We figured out we lived down the street from each other last year, but we never actually got together until this year. 
How much do you think you changed?: Not a whole lot I think? I'd like to think I'm a little happier, maybe a little more mellow. But that could be wishful thinking. I did learn to look to the present and future instead of dwelling on the past, so I guess there's that?
Did you grow any?: I'm still only 5'5". Did you have to rub that in? :(
What month was your birthday?: January. Same as last year and the year before that and the year before that and the... you get my point.
Was it special?: Nope. It was like any other day same as it always is. Oh wait! We went to the store and bought a cake from wal-mart. Does that count? ... There might have been ice cream involved too.
How were you in school?: Nope. I'm too poor and since I owe the one college I can't even get funding now. 
Do anything you regret a lot?: Physically messed around with people I wish I hadn't in retrospect and attempted a really patheti-sad relationship.
Anything you regret NOT doing?: I regret not turning in that job application on time. :(
Was it a leap year?: No.
What are you most thankful for this year?: 3 square meals, a roof over my head, air conditioning, heating, and my (for the most part) continued health as an unemployed, uninsured individual.
Did anyone you love die in 2011?:  No.
How many significant others did you have?: None?
Did you get in trouble a lot?: Nope.
Who are you going to kiss at midnight?: No one. I can kiss you if you want. I have a handy monitor screen here I can pucker up at.
Who do you WANT to kiss at midnight?: ...Sore wa himitsu desu. B/
Who's house are you going to party at?:  I have no idea. 
Going to watch the ball drop on TV?: No.
Will 2012 be better than 2011?: It has to be! Upwards and onwards! This year a new journal-site. Next year a new hometown! May 2012 be the year of new beginnings and new opportunities!
Current Music: Bad Girl, Good Girl - Miss A
Current Mood: contemplative
26 July 2009 @ 09:58 pm
I'm sick and tired of people like you
You think you're clever but you haven't a clue
(what can you do?)

A two watt light bulb is brighter than you
I'm sick and tired of people like you

You want it, you got it
Come take it, it's over here
You want it, you got it
Come take it, is that not clear?
You want it, you got it
Come take it, I'll do it for you
You want it, you got it
Come take it, just cross the line

The moral of the adventure is this
Take me for granted you are taking the piss
(Who love is this?)

I'd rather wind up with nothing at all
Than take a loser like you through it all

You want it, you got it
Come take it, it's over here
You want it, you got it
Come take it, is that not clear?
You want it, you got it
Come take it, I'll do it for you
You want it, you got it
Come take it, just cross the line

Cross the line

Why loser, why?
Die Loser, die.
1.Your Middle Name:

2. Age:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favorite place to hang out:

5. Favorite pet/animal:

6. Favorite Band/Artist:

7. Favorite food:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

9. What's your philosophy on life?

10. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:

11. What is the craziest thing you've ever done?

12. Ever been arrested/ gone to jail?

13. What attracts you to someone first?

14. If you could change anything about the world, would you?

15. If you could change anything about yourself, would you?

16. what is your favorite memory of us (if you don't have one..... say a memory you WANT to make with me!)?

17. What is your favorite thing to do in the world?

18. Where (ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD) would you take me on a date if I asked you?

19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

20. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
Current Music: Kaze to rainbow - Garnet Crow
Current Mood: hungry